Tuesday, December 23, 2014

What a week!

I'll save the happier stuff for the next post but what a week it has been!

Anyway, I started off winter vacation with grand plans (both work and social) but I don't see any castles and palaces being built so.. I doubt much will be achieved this winter. (laughs) I was supposed to work on the Taiwan itinerary, finish 6 weeks of readings for the social science module and make Christmas cards for everyone but naw, I'm just not in the mood to do so. I will have to work on the itinerary (shall we do it tomorrow?) and do some readings (I did one chapter and it was so tedious and boring. Like stale bread, maybe worse) but for now, I find myself satisfied with this relaxed and carefree lifestyle. Having nothing to do can actually be quite a delightful experience, much to my surprise. It may feel useless, like a waste of time (urgh, the conditioning of the local education system) but time that one enjoys wasting is not wasted time. As for the Christmas cards, that's a bit of a waste though - sigh - last Christmas, I was full of inspiration and came up with a set of digital Christmas cards but this year, the creative spark has been real elusive. Perhaps, I'm still fatigued from the previous semester - which I find completely believable considering how the past semester has been - and frankly, I'm not sure if I can "recover" in time for the upcoming semester. I mean, I find it difficult to even feel true excitement about my Taiwan trip and we're talking about a country I've been wishing to visit for years here!

The exhaustion extends to how (in)active my social scene has been as well. I have a couple of people I should/need to/have to meet but it's been tough trying to feel enthusiastic about these meetings. I was supposed to plan two group outings but I forgot (or somehow made myself forget) about them and.. I think I'm gonna shelve those plans for a while. Just a lil' while until my social batteries have been fully charged, alright? 

I've been thinking a lot these days (no thanks to the hermit lifestyle) but sometimes, I wish these thoughts could just leave for a bit.. and give me some peace. The constant narration in my head - aw man, I wish it had an "Off" switch! Oh and life would be even better if certain absurd, terrible people could just stay away and not scare others with their rotten, warped personalities. Hah, if only.

Anyway, Pottermore has been taking up quite a bit of my time so more Harry Potty joy to go around yay! It always feels good to go back to Harry Potty and Friends (:

I've also finished two books and a drama (this is the type of accomplishments I can boast about this winter HAHA). Hmm what did I read.. <Déjà Dead> by Kathy Reichs and <The Accused> by John Grisham! The former.. (sheepish laugh) I thought it was part of the <Virals> series by the same author (which is young adult fiction) because of the deceptively childish-looking cover and the familiar-sounding main character (who's actually the aunt of the protagonist in the young adult fiction series) but.. <Déjà Dead> turned out to be a crime novel!! Haha slightly too graphic (read: gory) and heavy for a starter reading! I'm not fond of her writing style in this book too - she went overboard with her use of literary devices (overkill, seriously), to the extent that it got slightly draggy and difficult to read, what with the crowd of metaphors and similes. Imagery is important but.. she was too generous. That said, I do have a few favourite (but kinda morbid) quotes though! ^^ I chuckled at these:

"He cleaned up after himself, so Roy wouldn't suspect, but when Gilbert and the boys gave the cellar a Luminol spray this morning it lit up like halftime at the Orange Bowl."

"Oh. And Gilbert has a chef's saw for you. Says it glows."

"Can you do this day after day, year after year, and not lose faith in the human species?"

"From time to time the human species spawns predators that feed on those around them. They're not the species. They're mutations of the species In my opinion these freaks have no right to suck oxygen from the atmosphere. But they're here, so I help cage them up and put them where they can't hurt others. I make life safer for the folks who get up, go to work each day, raise their kids or their tomatoes, or their tropical fish, and watch the ball game in the evening. They are the human species."

Theodore Boone's story was a much easier and lighthearted read! It's categorised as a legal thriller but since the target audience's young adults (it's really a book for teens), I flew through the chapters and it was an enjoyable read overall. It's interesting to read about a kid aspiring to be a lawyer/judge.

As for the drama I've recently completed, that was ah, so much deeper and darker. Once again, I got deceived by appearances (just like that insidious book cover aha) >.< The drama was showing on television and it's called "White Christmas" so.. Well, since it's Christmas season and all, I thought I was in for some sweet romantic comedy (didn't help that I saw one of my favourite actors playing the lead) HAHA Quite the contrary, I got sucked into (and was wholly unprepared for) a gripping, terrifying psychological thriller that explored themes like nature/nuture, fear/trust, isolation/community and moral retribution/punishment by the system. It's definitely not the typical Korean drama (what an insult that would be) - this should properly be described as a rare gem amidst the dime-a-dozen KPOP dramas. It's meaningful and deeply moving, and invokes a wide range of emotions in its audience whilst provoking them to do some reflecting and thinking of their own. 

I don't think my paragraph-long review does the drama much justice so if anyone happens to be interested in this excellently produced drama, you can check out the reviews at these sites: Drama Review 1 and Drama Review 2. I read them all after I finished the 8 episodes because I wanted perspectives. Do ignore their occasional fangirling/fanboying of the actors, especially Kim Woo Bin though haha (unavoidable for a drama with such a cast). It's also such a pity both reviewers disliked the lead actor (who happens to be my childhood crush) - I thought he did a brilliant job! (being defensive hahah) Heh it's been 11 years since I said I wanted to marry him (laughs heartily) but I realise that I still like him! I think he grew up to be a very fine man and actor, although my sister begs to differ. (whoops, digressed)

In my entire K-drama history thus far, only two dramas stand out for their thought-provoking storylines and remarkable emotional depth. There's "White Christmas" and then there's "The Devil". Haha that. was. insane. I can't remember when I watched it but I do recall that I almost flooded the house with my tears - I never ever wish to experience that desperate, helpless feeling again (shudders) - and that I got incredibly conflicted and upset over the moral dilemmas portrayed in the show. The scriptwriters had one job and boy, they did a terrific one.

Alright, enough of drama introduction haha ^^ It's getting late and I gotta go sleep soon! It's been therapeutic writing about joyful (or at least, non-upsetting) events (: and I'll continue with a post on the Christmas party and surprise event soon! 

Peace out, guys!

Hohoho~!  Three days till Christmas!

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Winter Break: Second Week Part II

I have a ton to blog (there's a freakin' monologue in my mind that goes on 24/7.. like don't ya even need a break?!) but at the same time, I don't have the motivation to write so.. those pesky thoughts of mine can wait. This week has been spent quite meaningfully because I finally got out of the house and met with friends.. though I got to say my social networking battery for the week has been thoroughly depleted by now. So what did I do and who did I meet? There was the semi-awkward encounter with an old friend (it has been so long since we last met, I was amazed to discover that I couldn't even remember how he used to sound like), the high-spirited (and somewhat scandalous haha) catch-up with classmates, the movie session with a junior (and how his judgmental behavior pissed me off) and the terrific "exploration of Singapore" with the best friends on Friday. It has been a pretty fine week, I must say - although it has left me quite broke as well. I need to tighten those purse strings of mine or... any more meetups are gonna be difficult.

On a separate note, I was elated to receive news from ICON that I finally have an international buddy of my own! A Korean buddy no less! I was exhilarated because I missed the signups for buddies this semester sobs (whereas all my exchange friends had so much fun with their Korean buddies) so imagine how happy I was! Alas... expectations and reality aren't always a match.



The Korean buddies this semester were all so sweet, endearing, good-natured and passionate - thanks to my friends, I got to hang out with them a few times - and I got really used to their adorable ways (their text messages are always peppered with hearts and smiley emoticons!). Even though it's uncharacteristic of me, I always made sure that my replies to them were filled with hearts and cute expressions. But my buddy... (sigh)

I'll let the pictures tell the story.
(happyhappyhappy!)


Lol?!
 (moreover, she replied in such a curt, unenthusiastic manner, it made me question if she even wanted a buddy in the first place.. andddd although quite a few days have passed since then, she still hasn't replied my subsequent messages - I do know that she has read them already though - so that just leaves me hangin'... Whatever happened to lovable, playful Korean buddies?! I doubt it's a misuse of the acronym as well, considering that her command of English is reasonably good. I suspect that she's good both in English and Chinese!)

I'm not saying that all Korean girls have to be fluffy and cute (or that buddies must all be the ILOVEYOULEGGOHAVEFUN type- no way!) but it's really just a slightly disappointed me going..


Since I've been looking forward to getting a buddy so much.

We'll see how it goes, that is, if she decides to reply me haha.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Transition

New phone, new apps, new user interface.
No more chat histories (wahhhhh), no more photos (wahhhhhhhhhhhh), no more songs (faints).
Latest versions of social media apps (which seem so alien to me) and annoying ringtones.
Changing phones is akin to saying (forever) goodbye to the past 2 years of memories.
So foreign, so unfamiliar, so different.

Heartbreaking.


Monday, December 8, 2014

Winter Break: Second Week

It was a Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day a couple of days back (no, I'm not promoting the movie haha) but thankfully, the week has passed uneventfully. I really need to get out of the house and go get some fresh air. Hort Park sounds very (hinthint) lovely. I read somewhere that we need at least 30 minutes of fresh air or exposure to nature everyday in order to not be under-happy - cubicle rats, please take note - so.. I basically need to go out and get in touch with nature.

Friday, December 5, 2014

Join me in my prayers.

Friends are sick, my baby niece is hospitalised (she's fortunately on the mend by now) and my mind's running wild. Nothing seems to be going right in this world in this very moment. The worst thing is the realisation that.. there's absolutely nothing I can do for them. This helplessness makes me feel so angry, so frustrated and so very useless. Why do all these innocent people (who have so much good in them) have to suffer such pain and agony? It pains me immensely to see my friends suffering and yet, there's really nothing I can do to make them feel better.
I can play with my niece, pat her gently and sing to her but I know that it isn't going to reduce the pain she feels (oh, how fearsome must those needles be like to a child). Likewise, I can send encouraging messages to my friends and all but at the end of the day, those are, but mere words. Words which once meant the world to a person at a certain point in time, can now be nothing more than a string of alphabets. And in the face of those invisible demons, they shrink to nothingness.

I am sorry, my friends.

Very much so.

I sincerely pray, that all will be well again.

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

A good night's sleep

Finally, the much-dreaded exams are over! I've also submitted the final assignment of the semester earlier this evening so this is.... officially the winter break! *\(^______^)/*

I didn't get my afternoon nap today (because of the mind-numbing assignment) so I'm going to have an early night for once! Alright, it's not exactly early but still earlier than my usual sleeping time heh I shall endeavor to sleep by 10.30 p.m. tomorrow (and set the Guinness (Maddie's) World record for the earliest sleeping time ever) and pay off those sleep debts! I generally don't sleep well during exam period - stuck in the light sleep stage - so I really do need to catch up on sleep. Alright, goodnight for now, people!

I shall leave everyone with a very soothing song (:



Tomorrow's tentative plan:
1) Eat my yummy homemade yoghurty
2) Design Christmas Cards
3) Catch up on manga! <3
4) Read a book or something!

HOW RELAXING.
THIS IS THE LIFE.